Saturday, July 3, 2010

Difficult news

It is with a heavy heart that I report that due to insurmountable events beyond our control, we are being denied the opportunity to adopt Nastia.
It is so odd. We always knew that there was a chance we would not be able to adopt her, but we always thought that we would know that at the SDA appointment. That for some unknown reason, we would be referred a different child. Never in our wildest dreams (nightmares) did we think we would find out we couldn't adopt her after spending a week visiting twice a day, hugging, kissing, playing, falling deeper and deeper in love. It boggles our minds.
Even in this seeming tragedy, we find comfort. Nastia is healthy. healthier than we ever imagined. She is happy, smart, clever, bright. As far as orphanage institutions go, hers is very equipped. For now, these are good thlngs that we can cling to.
While we don't know what God's plan is, we choose joy. Joy in our Father, who's plans are perfect. We rejoice that He loves us and has a plan. That while in this world, there will be trouble, but we know that He has overcome the world.
Through our tears, we press on.
As you can imagine, I am reluctant to share day by day what will be happening, but know that when we have certain news, I will reveal what our future has become.
Please, continue to pray for us. Pray for Rich and Bridget who have to shepherd our children through this distressing news without us.
We thank our Father that we know with certainty that we are in His hands.

16 comments:

Julia said...

I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY SORRY. I know you are deeply grieving and clinging as hard as you can to the Lord's hand. I am standing with you in prayer. Feeble cries to a God who hears and holds you in His loving hands.

Charissa said...

Traci-I am SO so sorry. I can't imagine how difficult this must be for your family. Some things are so hard to understand. We will be praying for you and for little Bianca.

Molly said...

oh honey. I am so sorry.

Shane said...

I am without words!! It is so hard to understand the Lords ways sometimes. Possibly you may never know the good He send you to do.

My heart is so hurting for your wonderful family right now!

Michelle Z said...

Oh Traci, I'm so sorry - I can only imagine how hard this must be, for all of you. We're thinking of you.

Loretta said...

I am so very sorry...we are sending prayers and thinking of you often.

Bonnie said...

Oh I can't even begin to imagine how hard all of this is... praying for peace and understanding.

Welcome to the Lazy J! A "Ranch" where God is at work! said...

Traci, I am so sorry. We have been in a similar situation before, and know your pain. Our birth mother changed her mind at the last moment three years ago after a long relationship prior to our son's birth, an early delivery, and much time spent falling in love with him at the hospital. It hurts.so.bad. Turn to God, let Him comfort you, but know that it will still hurt, even three years later. But know also that you have done (and are doing) God's will in this situation and that even though this hurts, that God is continuing to work out His good and perfect will in your life and Nastia's. Sometimes we just need to really fall in love with these children to truly intercede throughout their lives with our prayers. Keep believing and trusting that you are in God's perfect hands. Traci

Rachel said...

may the Lord give you peace that passes all understanding. im so sorry...hugs, rachel

Christie said...

Traci,

I came to your site through Melinda's and just wanted to let you know that I am praying for your family today.

Your steadfastness (just seen in your most recent post) to the Lord is a testimony to so many.

Knowing that God is going to be glorified and do great things through this tough time.

In Christ,
Christie
http://satisfactionthroughchrist.blogspot.com

Suzy Q said...

I am so saddened by your news. I can't imagine what all of you are feeling right now or how difficult and painful it must be for you. Praying you will continue to find comfort and strength in God even though you don't understand the whys.

Brian and Autumn said...

Traci and Scott,
We are so deeply saddened by yours news and so sorry for the pain you guys and the kids must be feeling right now. We will lift you up in prayer. We love you guys!

Deanna said...

Hey Traci,

Really sorry sooo sorry. I know this is really difficult but also believing that God is on His throne and holds these children so close to His heart. I know too that you are such a huge advocate for many of the children in the Ukraine and know that HE will reveal to you what His plans are for you in due time. Just know how much we love you and there are many praying for you and your family...an amazing miracle is about to unfold and I know it may be hard to see now..but keep yourselves braced for an amazing testimony....love you guys..

Shannon- said...

Oh my. {Hugs} and Prayers. THis is gut wrenching.

Tami said...

I am so sorry. I can only imagine how difficult this must be for all of you. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

positivelyorphaned.org said...

Oh, no! I don't understand how this could happen. How very sad for her. I hope you will be able to share more details and perhaps there is another child who is meant to be in your family. This is such sad news :( I was SO hoping she would have a family now. I believe that everything happens for a reason, but it must be so difficult to understand the reason right now. Nastia and your family are in my thoughts.